daily choices

so i have joined the masses… i am now officially a “blogger” like all my cool friends in TN! why is it that most of my friends in TN have blogs and most of the people here in TX have myspace? hmm… i think i’ll ride the fence here and have both. i mean, i DO live in texas, but my heart will always be in tennessee!

i’m hoping that having a blog will force me to sit down and organize my thoughts… it seems that i’m constantly learning something new and thinking “man, i need to write that down!” but i never get to it. until now. today is the day! here it goes… blog numero uno…

the last few months have been particularly difficult… since january, to be exact. my family has kind of fallen apart since i moved to texas. i love my family so much… i couldn’t have asked for better parents growing up or a more wonderful brother. but over the past few years they’ve changed quite a bit and now things are totally different. i saw many red flags along the way and always tried to be the middle man, but it just wasn’t enough. even more than that, i hoped for the best and prayed that things would work out. but they didn’t. my parents, who have been married for for nearly 28 years, filed for divorce in january.

it’s been difficult to deal with… and i totally do not understand how any child can go through a parents’ divorce at a young age. i’m an adult and it’s absolutely ripped my heart out! i love my parents more than anything-they are the people that taught me everything i know… but more than anything, they taught me about the love that my savior has for me. and i’ve never doubted that to be true. but there’s a point when, as children, we grow up and we realize that our parents aren’t perfect. they don’t know everything. and they make mistakes. but i can’t let my parents mistakes handicap me in making decisions that will affect my future. i love my mom and dad dearly and i respect them… i think that’s why the news of their divorce has been like a blow to the gut.

but i realize now that i have choices to make. i must chose to rise above my circumstances and strive to live a life of righteousness. i must chose joy. no longer will i allow the enemy to steal away from me blessings that god has placed in my life. yes, divorce is a dreadful, sad thing. i agree totally. but when i look at my life, i see SO many things to be thankful for… and so i chose to be joyful.